If there’s anything I can say with certainty, it’s that my mind is constantly changing.
Or at least I think so… (see what I did there?)
I’m a horrible judge of what I want and as a result, I’m terrified of any sort of commitment.
Southeast Asia and traveling used to be my wet dreams. The latter was the bulk of what I wrote about in my personal journals.
It consumed my mind and led me on the entrepreneurial path.
But now, I’m actually considering 2016 to be the year of staying in Arizona. Settling down. Making travel only an occasional part of my itinerary instead of the half the year in Asia half in the states like I’ve been considering for the past year.
Funny enough, just three weeks ago I was thinking that I’d be spending visiting Europe in 2016.
I wouldn’t be surprised if I change my mind again.
Then it bleeds into business.
“Do I want to work my ass off and build a 7-figure and beyond agency?”
Or…
“Do I want to put in just a few hours a day, collect an income that makes me comfortable, and call it a day?”
I know myself well enough to account for the fact that I may change my mind, which is why I build flexibility into my everyday decisions.
More recently, I’ve gone from “Hell no” to long-term relationships (mostly due to travel) to “Oh, I could see myself settling down”–as long as my “I don’t want kids” stance doesn’t change!
Call me unpredictable. Inconsistent and nuts.
But it’s normal, I think.
You’re allowed to change your mind.
New experiences come and go, some of which may alter your trajectory.
Maybe it’s something someone says that changes how you view the world and what you want to do.
Or you’ll just be lying down in bed one day, reflecting on something completely unrelated, when it hits you.
You don’t have to stay on one ship forever. You’re allowed to hop on deck to someone else’s. You may hear what they have to say and decide to adjust your own sail as a result.
Knowing yourself is vital. It’s a good thing if you know yourself well enough to know you change your mind a lot. You can’t change that about yourself.
It’s better to know and integrate flexibility and open-mindedness into your life than to struggle for eternity trying to be consistent when that’s not who you are.
As long as you stick to your values, you’re doing just fine.
Who knows? Maybe I’ll change my mind on this again, but this is where I stand now.
Vincent, I think you are realizing that unless you master yourself you will always be a victim to your surroundings. Most people because they are too identified and derive their sense of self from their thinking process will live a reactionary life. Always chasing their latest minds objects of desire. To respond to life requires a different level of self-awareness, a different quality of attention. One of the greatest illusions we have is that we think we can actually “do” when in reality our lives are mainly the result of accident. But to anyone who has practiced sincere self-observation moment to moment realizes that our psyche is actually made up of hundreds of little “i’s” (personalities built on likes/dislikes) that change moment to moment depending on our circumstances but we mistakenly believe we are always the same. This is why you change your mind so much. One moment one “i” is in charge and decides to do something. Then the next day another “i” is in charge and has no interest in carrying out the other “i’s” wishes. Our inner space is full of contradictions.Only someone who has integrated himself and has a real “I” possesses will-power and the power to do. Best of luck on the rest of your journey! Check out this post I wrote a while back, I think you may resonate with it “The Real Way To Becoming a Minimalist” http://freedomfromtheknown.com/becoming-minimalist/
Deep stuff, Ivan! Thanks for sharing. 🙂
I get it Vincent. Whatever you choose is your choice alone.
Truth!